So I have come to realize that no one can really get rid of addiction. We can't really banish it, so we merely transfer the addiction around. When we hear the word 'addiction' we automatically assume the worst; we think of drugs, porn, or something that negatively affects our lives. However, I have come to realize that addiction can be in all forms positive and negative. Addictions can range from needing drugs to get through the day or needing to confide to Jesus to pass by.
Personally, I don't find addictions that bad until they begin to deteriorate either your social, mental, or physical well being. I used to be addicted to video games... and in ways I allow myself to have relapses on the occasion. Yes, I would lock myself away to play hours of MMOs to achieve "character perfection". It took me years to realize that, while socially interacting with people across the world, I was really isolating myself. While I would be able to share common interests with many people, I would never be able to connect with these people in real life. They will always be an internet barrier away. And while there is always the possibility of getting on a plane and flying over to meet them, it is often thought as taboo (or at least weird) to do so.
After a period of time, I began to reflect on what I was accomplishing both in game and with these people I've met. In the end... this game does not positively affect the well being of my life and I had to stop wasting my life in it. What do I do with all the time I used to dedicate in this game? Of course, you find something else to put time into. Lately I've been putting my time into the pursuit of knowledge. It seems like anything I don't know has suddenly become an interest and I want to research it. Switching from a negative addiction to a positive one is always a good thing :)
So, what do you consider positive/negative addictions? What addictions do you have and would you want to change it?
About Me
- iZonedOut
- Everyone comes to the point where they see darkness in front of them. It's up to them to find a way to make their tomorrow a little brighter. I live one day at a time making the most I can, when I choose to. ;) Read on and dive into my psyche.
11.21.2011
10.15.2011
Disaster on the road.
We spend so much time in our own little world, when do we really live in reality? I realized that when I drive to and fro work (or on any long road trip) I spend less time analyzing the possible dangers around me and more time in my head. Don't get me wrong, I still perceive my surrounding environment, but I take that environment and twist it around in my head. For instance, I had quite a fun adventure driving home from work.
When driving home on the 60 eastbound, it was like any other Friday night; It was not dead stop traffic, but rather an uncomfortable tight flow. As a small silver pick-up truck passes me on the right, he begins to veer slightly to the left.
He is replying to a text message that invited him to a party later that evening, "be there at...". Thud thud thud thud. His tires begin rolling over the bumps dividing the lanes. He snaps his phone shut and throws it on the empty passenger seat to center himself in his lane again. Unfortunately, this was all to late to prevent disaster.
The young, inexperienced, teenage driver in front of me panics. The thought of this monstrous truck merging into her lane and destroying her hand-me-down Volkswagen Beetle triggers a natural reaction, get the fuck out of the way! Instead of honking to warn the other driver, she snaps left. She miscalculates the pull. Her Beetle bounces off the Toyota Camry, swings back across her lane, and into the next lane, just missing the truck's rear bumper by mere centimeters. As her long, smooth, brunette hair swings back to center, she slams on her breaks.
The trucker approaching sees this distraught Beetle ahead of him. Thirty five years of experience tells him that he does not have enough distance to stop and if he suddenly breaks, the asshole tailgating him may not have enough time to effectively respond. He checks his mirrors. To the right, one car. The small convex mirror shows it to be nearing his passenger door. To the left, a full lane; that is not an option. The car passes. A double check confirms that the right lane is clear. He passes and clears the disaster unfolding.
Driving his 2008 black Mustang, he is given a false sense of power. On the road, he can do whatever he wants, whenever he wants... that is until this semi merges and everything is now exposed. He is going to fast. His eyes dilate. He slams the breaks. The Anti-lock Breaking System kicks in spewing smoke and a streak of rubber on the road to be remembered.
Then of course, I snap back to reality... sitting in dead stop traffic on the 60. The young man is still texting in his truck. The girl in the Beetle still sitting there, looking straight ahead. Everyone is just settled, crawling along in the traffic. Everything is calm in this chaotic mess we call traffic.
So... we all let our imaginations run while we drive. Some people imagine ninjas jumping from car to car, others go into explicit details warping their surroundings.
What goes on in your head to make traveling faster?
When driving home on the 60 eastbound, it was like any other Friday night; It was not dead stop traffic, but rather an uncomfortable tight flow. As a small silver pick-up truck passes me on the right, he begins to veer slightly to the left.
He is replying to a text message that invited him to a party later that evening, "be there at...". Thud thud thud thud. His tires begin rolling over the bumps dividing the lanes. He snaps his phone shut and throws it on the empty passenger seat to center himself in his lane again. Unfortunately, this was all to late to prevent disaster.
The young, inexperienced, teenage driver in front of me panics. The thought of this monstrous truck merging into her lane and destroying her hand-me-down Volkswagen Beetle triggers a natural reaction, get the fuck out of the way! Instead of honking to warn the other driver, she snaps left. She miscalculates the pull. Her Beetle bounces off the Toyota Camry, swings back across her lane, and into the next lane, just missing the truck's rear bumper by mere centimeters. As her long, smooth, brunette hair swings back to center, she slams on her breaks.
The trucker approaching sees this distraught Beetle ahead of him. Thirty five years of experience tells him that he does not have enough distance to stop and if he suddenly breaks, the asshole tailgating him may not have enough time to effectively respond. He checks his mirrors. To the right, one car. The small convex mirror shows it to be nearing his passenger door. To the left, a full lane; that is not an option. The car passes. A double check confirms that the right lane is clear. He passes and clears the disaster unfolding.
Driving his 2008 black Mustang, he is given a false sense of power. On the road, he can do whatever he wants, whenever he wants... that is until this semi merges and everything is now exposed. He is going to fast. His eyes dilate. He slams the breaks. The Anti-lock Breaking System kicks in spewing smoke and a streak of rubber on the road to be remembered.
Then of course, I snap back to reality... sitting in dead stop traffic on the 60. The young man is still texting in his truck. The girl in the Beetle still sitting there, looking straight ahead. Everyone is just settled, crawling along in the traffic. Everything is calm in this chaotic mess we call traffic.
So... we all let our imaginations run while we drive. Some people imagine ninjas jumping from car to car, others go into explicit details warping their surroundings.
What goes on in your head to make traveling faster?
10.14.2011
Reason behind the madness
I just wanted to explain what this blog is about and a little of what it will have in the future. First and foremost, I would like to thank Angela for getting me started on here; check her crazy adventures in London some time. Now, back to this blog. One reason I am writing this is to, hopefully, keep Angela encouraged to post so I can keep up to date on how she and Celine are doing. Another reason digs a little deeper into my heritage and past, which I will probably mention in a later time. Let's say the I'm starting the blog now is to get away, even if it is for a short period of time.
Many people have their getaways; this will be mine. Whether it be when I wake up, go on my lunch break, or getting ready for bed, I find time put on my headphones, turn on some music, and tune the world out. I used to read in this moment, but now I'm going to try and express what is going on through my mind or what happened throughout the day. If you don't have a method of getting away from this world, I would recommend finding your own world to escape to.
If you don't have your own escape, you can always borrow mine. :) There is a little warning though... things can get pretty crazy. You should take most of my experiences with a grain of salt, for this is how I perceive my world.
Well... I would write more, but I'm tired as hell from flying around work all day. I shall head butt my pillow and knock myself out for the next few hours.
Enjoy the stories to come :)
Patrick
Many people have their getaways; this will be mine. Whether it be when I wake up, go on my lunch break, or getting ready for bed, I find time put on my headphones, turn on some music, and tune the world out. I used to read in this moment, but now I'm going to try and express what is going on through my mind or what happened throughout the day. If you don't have a method of getting away from this world, I would recommend finding your own world to escape to.
If you don't have your own escape, you can always borrow mine. :) There is a little warning though... things can get pretty crazy. You should take most of my experiences with a grain of salt, for this is how I perceive my world.
Well... I would write more, but I'm tired as hell from flying around work all day. I shall head butt my pillow and knock myself out for the next few hours.
Enjoy the stories to come :)
Patrick
10.13.2011
Just starting out.
My friend Angela has motivated me to start blogging as well. Unfortunately, I am at work and can't really do much. I will look into redesigning a little, posting a little background story, and a little of what my blog will be about.
I'll catch you guys later :)
In the mean while, check out Angela's adventures in London at:
http://americangradlondon.blogspot.com/
I'll catch you guys later :)
In the mean while, check out Angela's adventures in London at:
http://americangradlondon.blogspot.com/
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